♥ Tuesday, March 22.
i know its kinda freaking long since i use my page , to express my feelings and thoughts .
came to work feeling quite happy , thou i was abit late fr some appointment . did production and service as well , and evrything went on smoothly thou it was damn busy ! just before lunch break , GM was talking to me bout food , blah blah blah , one part , he was saying bout somebody handed in letter and will be finishing work soon . i ddnt pay attention to what he was saying coz my hand was working on smth , but i did heard what he was taking . ignored bout that , i went down fr lunch , and while eating , somebody also said th same thing . i was freaking SHOCKED ! and kept ask her to repeat her words , and denying her words at th same time , coz i really ddnt believe her at all . soon 2 more person came and said th same things and cnfrm bout it . frm that moment , my mind went completely blank and ive no appetite to continue eating . threw my food away , i msg-ed A , telling him bout it . and he straight away called me . told him bout what they told me , and he told me he also knew bout it . i was shocked too but couldnt say anything and dont want to say anything too . but he knew i sounded upset and angry , so he tried to console me . i tried to calm down my mind and went to sleep . but couldnt sleep , turn and toss around , i finally gave up on sleeping . was my face and walk around like a zombie coz my mind was in complete daze . an hour later , continue work again and i asked one of th china guy bout it . and he told me he knew , evry single things of what i just heard earlier today . and he even say THEY ALL knew bout couple weeks ago . and i was like , HUH ??!! how come i ddnt know .
th more i think , th more angry i bcame . wonder why ?? here's why !
i work hard , i force myself to work hard , coz unlike other ppl , each station have at least 2 ppl , so they at least have somebody to ease their workload . but not fr me , ive to work alone , rushing fr productions as well fr service time . but nvr did i complain , i just fulfill my duties .
and when he off or if he went on holidays , ive to take care some of things , coz some stupid old guys , likes to be on th front but wont even do th job . ok i ddnt open mouth nor say anything bout them .
but ! last week when i was bullied again , thou he bullied me before few times but not as serious as last week , and i finally tried to open my mouth to talk bout it , but Ch wont listen to it . saying he wont care coz it happens when he was off . i was like , hello ??!! i tried to hold up some justice fr myself , or to even protect myself , but fcking nobody cares ! and ok , i kept quiet again , and do my job as per normal .
and today , i heard this news not frm himself , but frm th mouth of diff ppl . and what i mad most about is , WHY AM I TH ONLY ONE KEPT IN TH DARK ?! evrybody else knows bout it but not me !! i dont mind you going off , but at least inform me .
and furthermore , your departure clashes w my holiday . so hell ya ! fr sure my mind will be disturbed when i went fr my holidays . just when i can finally take a break , smth is fr sure to destroy my time .
why do i feel evrything , evryone is trying to bring me down and to leave me ??!
worked like a dog , no recognition , no nothing . as th only s'porean , but holding th lowest pay compared to all those foreigners . you took foreign workers coz its cheaper , and they can accept lower pay compared to local , but not here , its th other way round . th local itself gets th lowest pay , but foreigners gets higher than local . wheres th logic ?!
ive long had enough of these shits , but i still came to work evryday , coz i dont want ruin your reputation , and to gain myself more experience day by day . but day by day too , th feeling of going away frm this place is getting stronger , but i cnt do it coz if i leave , nobodys gonna do th job . coz they just freaky dont wanna take another person fr my station .
arggggggggghhhhhhhhhh !!
can i just backfire evrything ?!! coz my definition in life is ;
revenge is forever sweet :)
